Ouchhh!

I fell of a bicycle. :(

Haha. Yesterday i was riding with my brother. at 5 pm. yes it was raining. I mean pouring, not that heavy but i was soaking wet indeed! haha well you know mua. :D

Yess at that time i was freaking bored and i wanted to go out and play. So what the heck just riding my bike. and FYI, i was wearing my pajamas pants. just the pants only. I really love that pants. It was like my favorite PJ's ever. Have you ever felt comfortable wearing a piece of clothes that you FREAKINGLY love? yeah that's what my relationship and the pants had. haha then while i was riding happily.. Somehow and somewhat my pants got stuck between those chains. WHAT! yeah. i don't know how but it just did and i was like whaaaaaaaaat! it was freakingly in  the middle of the road! and i cant even move my foot so i had no choice but to fall sideways. i couldn't get up nor the bike couldn't also be moved because my foot and the bike were like those twins with their body attached together.

Yeah i had to lay their and shout to my brother to help me before a car would came. I was like help me for god sake. my foot! so my brother told me to get up but i cant obviously! so i had to rip my pants a little and finally i could stand and then my brother helped me to untie the tangled pants in that STUP*D chains. 

Here's the funny part. A car came and we moved to the side and gave it some space to run along and not watch but it was like freezing not even moving so i was like hurry and go awayyyy car! huh! -_- After my foot got its freedom the car came closer and said " Did your foot got stuck again? be careful this is your second time. play safely" and i was like wahaaat??? so i just nodded simply and rode back home. 

MUMMY! i came home and told me mum.. She said that i should not ride in the rain and to be careful and wear some proper attire the next ti,e. What a mum! I LOVE YOU :)

Then my sister overheard and told me she got stuck too once. So that aunty must have seen her fell and thought it was me. HAHA boy oh boy. :)

Once you fall doesn't mean you can't get up and try again. Go for it and learn your mistakes! :)

SONG FOR THE DAYY

Taylor Swift - Forever and Always

LYRICS :

Once upon a time, I believe it was a Tuesday when I caught your eye
And we caught onto something
I hold onto the night, you looked me in the eye and told me you loved me
Were you just kidding?
'cause it seems to me, this thing is breaking down
We almost never speak
I don't feel welcome anymore
Baby what happened, please tell me?
'cause one second it was perfect, now you're halfway out the door
And I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always
Was I out of line?
Did I say something way too honest, made you run and hide
Like a scared little boy
I looked into your eyes
Thought I knew you for a minute, now I'm not so sure
So here's everything coming down to nothing
Here's to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute, but I don't anymore
And I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn't mean it baby, I don't think so

Back up, baby, back up
Did you forget everything
Back up, baby, back up
Did you forget everything
'cause it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always
Oh, I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when we said forever and always
And it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn't mean it baby, you said forever and always.

The tone is catching and the music is harmony'ing and the lyrics are touching! :D

PHOTOSHOOT GEDIK TIME. :D

Movie nite

Its been too long since we watched a movie. This was at Alamanda at 12 midnight. haha Went out with my siblings. Watched SKYFALL. i was sleeping that time and my brother woke me up and said hurry i'll wait in the car and went off like that. I WAS LIKE. wahaaaatttt?? my sister ran in and said come on. we're watching Skyfall. and i was in my pajamas. -_- and my brother is in the car. and i just woke up. OMAIGOD. My siblings. -_- so i washed my face and got change. Selendang was an easy options. you just throw on your head and wrap it around. TADAAAA..haha i wonder if my brothers knows i'm a girl. i wished they would just treat me like a girl. i mean, i'm not a boy that could just get ready by changing. Ergh -_-" hahaha

oh, we came home at 3 am. It was funnnnnn! :) i love my siblings even if they are a wild crazy one! ^^ well, theres time you would be crazy.

OMAIGUCCI!

I was wrong. it was on the 9th November! my result was on 9th NOVEMBER! -_-

Haha did i bold that clearly? well. I seriously never thought my results was here this early. It was like this. i slept really late around 3am watching movies with my 19th year old sista, Umairah. We watched THE SWITCH. I recommend this movie! :D btw, get back on track on my story here.. It was at 11am before my mummy had to go to work. She woke my sister up to check her results. And guest what, she got DEKAN again. she's in sem 3 btw. yeah. dekan non stop. :'( LUCKY her. My mum was really happy and woke me up quickly. she's like, Fatnin get up, Umairah got 3.5.! hurry check yours. And i instantly woke up and my heart was pounding really hard. I felt that maybe i would die kind of feeling. you get me right. ><

I went downstairs. sat in front of the computer while my mum and my sisters watched around me. I didn't even wash my face. DISGUSTING? well, it all happened so fast. -_-"" i logged in and i was like. SERIOUSLY! i got this much??! and i shut it off. my mum was like, well its okey. i mean 3 pointer and above. You did great. I went upstairs straight away. I cried continuously. non-stop. i kept crying and kept thinking i studied really hard whats wrong with me. I got one C+. it was math. I mean. i could got a B. but because i didn't check my time i had to miss out on a couple of  questions. I mean I JUST DID NOT HAVE ENOUGH TIME! thats all.! i could do it. i really could. but i wasn't alert. The time was so fast. :( 

I cried almost the entire day. :(

Then i took my phone and texted all my lecturers saying that i was sorry to disappoint them and thank you for their blessing and for teaching me through the whole semester. I also texted Miss Halimahtun for not being one of her DEKAN students. I'm sorry. :( 

Then, i called my classmates. Azram got Deakan. OFCOURSE. and the rest had to repeat one subject. for Amira i did not know what she got. She refused to check her result. i'm not sure if she is repeting. I understand her worried-ness. because Share had to repeat math. :3

well, whatever it is. ALHAMDULILLAH. maybe i was trying very hard and Allah did not gave me the chance to get dekan this sem because the next sem i might not work as hard as i work now. So yeah, next sem i WILL increase my RESULT! i will score math! no matter how. And i PROMISE. 

I study because of Allah. Because of Him, i want my parents to be happy. I'm sorry. :3

15th November!

Scary! Its when the results are out. I am scared. i wonder what would i get. even how it turned out its all in Allah's will. i have to accept it and move on or just give hard times on myself. whatever i get Tawakal is all i have to do. Pray for me! :'} and BEST OF LUCK to you!! :)

What do you do at home?

 HAHA. i get these questions a lot!

" Fatnin, what do you do at home? aren't you bored? get a job why don't you? "

haha. its so funny to think about these questions being asked. why? i find it amusing staying home. I mean come on, compared to college and home, where do you wanna spend your holidays? 

Let me answer these "funny" questions. haha i mean, there are tons of things to do at home! i have those lazy days where i would curl up in bed and sleep all day or play with my phones. but most of the days i do a

lot of things when i am bored.

For instance, i have tons and tons of books, magazines, and etc. so if i am bored i'll sit and read with a cup of tea, biscuits, or even a slice of cake. If not, i would totally go online! and i do online everyday. hee. i check my notifications, stroll down my wall, stalk people and do what i normally do. haha And everyday i would cook for dinner. so cooking is my routines. and i would do chores. cleaning the house. so these are my everyday routines. besides all that, there are times when my friends ask me to hang out and yeah i would go. i have to go out with my scouts friends, my classmates, my bestfreind, family and my college friends even my Sarawak's friends. i tried minimizing my times to hang out a lot. i don't wanna waste money. but fortunate for me, most of them would treat me. hehehhe :D 

well, other than that, if i have the mood to bake, i would bake! its fun to do some baking! making cupcakes or baking breads and others. seriusly its fun! :) haha ouh yeah, my sister is now busy finding her stuff for her marriage on May 2013. so i have to accompany her and help her choose and make decisions and give my opinions. i dont get paid but i get treated :D and also it would be an experience for me if one day i have to handle a program or my wedding, so why not help. :)

Other than all that, urmm.. i am on a project. what project? haha well, since i am not working ( not because i'm lazy okey) i am planning to do a small business of mine. I sell home made bracelets, headbands,  scrunchies, and Tee shirts. All of these are home made. I WANT A FREAKING SEWING MACHINE! but my mum doesn't let me. i dont know why. but my grandma has one and i'll try to persuade her. Cause do you know how hard to sew with your hands. OMG its TIRING!! -__-" but cool hehe. Well, i'm on it now not selling it yet. I'll update to give you the sneak peak. ^__^

what else do i do.. hmm.. yeah not forgetting i would watch movies! haha yes. these are my routines when i have the LAZY day time. i'll snuggle in bed and watch tons of movies. Reminds me of Qhairyl's movie marathon. haha Ouh, almost forgot. My mum bought my brother a bike. bicycle not motor bike -_- haha and its PIXIE. urgh. this is because, my younger brother spends his times on COMPUTERS! he plays games game and games. HALO la, Dota la. -_- so if he doesnt play games, he would sleep. my mum wanted him to go for outdoors activities so she bought him a skateboard. and that was a waste. he doesnt play on it but i do. hahhahahhahaa. well, so now he would spend his time riding and that would be good. helps his brain to stop with the games. and for me. if its not raining, i would play the bike every afternoon too. HAHA :D

ouh. and yeah, i am revising my last sems. while i'm doing that, i'm making notes for my juniors too. i dont want them to suffer like how i had to suffer. i mean i struggle more than how i had to struggle my spm. and i was so stressed. NEXT SEM I WANT to study harder. i will try my best.!!

and not forgetting, i'm finding my times to learn how to drive. Cause i dont know how to drive. okay, thankyou for laughing! haha. and maybe that is all my fun routines i can share. I mean, hey, there are lots of things you can do at home. just go to your creative side and think. make use of everything and learn new things. There are many ways to spend your holidays. GOODLUCKS :)

I dont understand.

I'm going to dip my head in my dreams of fairytales and promise to make those dreams comes true. I live in books tears laughter's paissons fashions and success. I have big goals to achieve when it comes to big things using my big heart!

Sometimes, your environment changes your situations. Its like living up to lies. You can lie using your word and actions, but your eyes speaks the truth. In able for things to work out, you got to give out your sacrifice. its not about  rejecting and how you are not good enough. its a bout accepting and tolerance. being through a lot of changes in life can be painful but these experience teaches us to stand up and just move on. Get your head straight, open your eyes wide and say goodbye! learning that you need to appreciate more for those who cares about you then rather caring for others that put you instate of pain and unpromising promise. so now i'm moving on. goodbye old me and hello new me! Lets get up and just move ahead even if you're alone. =)